Resting isn’t easy for me.
As an extremely Type A busy-body, I tend to run without stopping or catching my breath. I tend to go full-force from the time I wake up until the second my head hits the pillow. I tend to not ask for help, to always seem like I have it together, to not admit I am weak, to always push myself until I physically can’t anymore.
And it’s exhausting.
This past Sunday, I heard a really great sermon at my parents’ church on the Sabbath and keeping it holy. Some points that stuck out to me were:
- Rest is holy. We were made to rest.
- But we were also made to work, and to work hard at that.
- When we have a sacred rhythm, which involves work, worship + rest, we are pleasing God.
I don’t usually respect the Sabbath.
The preacher man asked us what our Sundays looked like, if they seemed any different than a normal weekday or Saturday. Other than going to church (which can also be a struggle), my Sundays look pretty much like every other day. I eat out with friends, do laundry or pick up groceries, plan for the week ahead, spend time with my boyfriend.
I felt extremely convicted. Why don’t I rest? Why do I always feel the need to work hard and play harder?
So here’s the deal, here is my promise to Jesus Man with you as my witness: I will rest more often.
The way I rest isn’t always the most conventional. Sometimes it’s physical rest (like sleeping), a lot of the time it’s emotional rest (like blogging — externally processing), other times it’s retreating to my studio apartment to play guitar, read my Bible, watch TV alone.
It isn’t easy and it is natural to me, but it certainly is necessary and good for me, too. I want to rest more because I want to make the most out of what I do.
Let’s keep the Sabbath holy.
In college, I also suffered from perfectionism (haha — but really) and overworking myself. It wasn’t until my sophomore year while going through several overwhelming hardships that I took rest more seriously.
For an entire semester, I fasted from eating on Tuesday’s and studied my Bible every morning before class. It was an incredibly transformative time for my faith, as I struggled with doubt but then sought Jesus out.
These days, I think my Sabbath time will look a bit differently. It isn’t realistic for me to make my Sabbath a weekday (or even sometimes a weekday morning, unfortunately). Ideally, I will treat my Saturday mornings from the time I wake up to about 10 a.m. as my Sabbath: waking up slow, making breakfast + coffee and reading my Bible. And Sunday services as additional worship to complement my Sabbath Saturday mornings.
I’m excited! I’m eager! I’m ready!
I really think this carved out time will be good for my mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health. I really think this could be super great for my holistic wellness and spiritual growth.
If you can’t commit the entire Sunday every week to be your Sabbath, I encourage you to find another time weekly to rest and be still before the Lord. I encourage you to pursue your walk with Christ and also your mental + physical wellness. Now let’s do this!!