I was in a wedding this weekend. Again.
It was my sixth wedding to be a part of in less than three years, and boy, has it been a whirlwind.
Some honest thoughts always run through my head whenever I’m asked to be a bridesmaid, like “How much will this cost?” And, “Will I like the bridesmaid gift?” Yes, I’m obviously a selfish human being (but aren’t we all at times?)
But other honest thoughts run through my brain too, like “I am so thrilled for my friend!” And, “I hope this day gets here soon!” Because I picture myself in my friend’s shoes and I am giddy with excitement, too.
Sometimes it’s tough.
Always a bridesmaid and never the bride, isn’t that how the saying goes? I never wanted or planned to get married young — and at this rate, it’s looking like that probably won’t happen anyway. But, sometimes it can be difficult watching my friends marry and just not seeing that in my near future.
Sometimes I question my life clock and wonder if I’m falling behind. After all, I moved out of my childhood home just two years ago. After all, I’m now in my first romantic relationship ever. After all, I still don’t wash my sheets often enough and lean on Pops to pay for my movie tickets.
But most of the time, it’s great!
It’s always overwhelmingly fun to see a pretty ring on my friend’s finger. It’s always exciting anticipation in the months leading up to the wedding. It’s always happy tears when she walks down the aisle.
It’s always a hoot busting silly moves on the dance floor. It’s always hilarious dodging the bouquet as it falls. It’s always great meeting their good friends and dear family for such a joyous celebration.
It’s okay if my life clock doesn’t look like my friend’s. It’s okay I am still just taking my time as I date this guy and get to know him better. It’s okay I don’t catch the bouquet, I don’t have to be the next one getting married anyway.
If you need me, you’ll find me holding my friend’s wedding dress as she pees. If you need me, I’ll be laughing on the dance floor and having a grand ‘ole time. If you need me, I’ll be standing at the front with my friend, wiping away happy tears, because there’s no place I’d rather be.